hmm so i'm a little drunk cause i decided to make dinner (casserole!) and drink wine. needless to say the dinner took longer than i expected and so i drank a little more wine than i expected on an empty stomach.

i'm also sitting in the dark with candles and my amazing 7 foot christmas tree (courtesy of that boy, with whom things are going very well finally) and listening to christmas music, and i really couldn't be happier.

i don't know why i'm LJing this. i guess i just want to remember this feeling.

so i just moved in to an amazing apartment in los feliz (right outside hollywood, fyi).

we have six awesome guy neighbors; tonight was one of their birthday parties. apparently we missed the beer pong marathon (a shame!) but we did accompany them to a hipster bar.

how do i know it's a hipster bar? they had a smiths album in the jukebox. the smiths!

yay life.

so one of my best friends in high school, my first boyfriend, and my first kiss, is probably going to be removed from life support soon. i love you, matthew. i hope you know that. i hope you know now how many people love you, and always will.

moral of the story: tell your friends you love them as often as you can, and don't do drugs, kids. please.

and i think i'm going to go to USC. i've got to suck it up and get over my fear of getting mugged or being terribly miserable and lonely without any friends at all for the rest of my life should i choose to go there. but at least i could have an awesome job out of college. the opportunites are worth it. and i could intern at capitol records!

haha, i wrote this almost exactly four years ago. what a crazy ride it's been.

so i'm 100% staying in LA after graduation.

mostly because i really want to work somewhere cool.
partly because there are way too many things i haven't done yet in this part of the country.
partly because there are way too many restaurants i haven't tried in the city!
a large part because most all of my friends will be here too.

and also because as much as i hate to admit it i've kind of grown to love it here.

now if i could find a decent barbeque restaurant...

sometimes i take for granted that i am living my dream, and other times, i'm completely overwhelmed that i'm actually here, in this place in my life, where i'm living in los angeles, working in radio or at a record label, and i go to class and learn about music law and create radio commercials for a grade. i'm just so damn passionate about what i'm doing, and i realize how rare that is in this world. it's especially apparent to me lately, as i prepare to graduate in exactly seven months, that i am supposed to be here, that i'm doing the right thing. somehow it all ended up exactly as i wanted, eight years ago, when i first imagined this. amazing.

i am so damned awkward today.

AUGH. in other news, took an amazing impromptu trip to memphis for lunch yesterday. left at noon, was home by 7! and i had my first fried bologna sandwich.

i kind of feel like redoing my life. it's weird.

summer goals:
+ get a JOB. or two. one that pays and one that gets me school credit.
+ get organized.
+ lose 20 lbs. ha! i'm serious though. i want to be hott.
+ write my awesome short story.
+ stay in touch with friends. so far so good, now that we have wireless and i have text messaging now.
+ drink more water.
+ play my guitar more.
+ read life-changing literature.
+ figure out...things. yes, i'm being intentionally vague.

augh, little rock is SO boring... i actually miss los angeles! however, i did go to wal-mart today, and it was amazing.

edit: so i'm definitely writing my short story in one of my old lisa frank notebooks from elementary school.

should be a city, so i can live there forever.

it was SO amazing. i wish i could have gone all three days though. next year!

i randomly saw two of the three friends i was hoping to see, so that was cool. though i'm kind of worried about the third, cause i haven't heard from him since i dropped him at the bus station friday to take a greyhound and then walk four miles to coachella...

annnnd i saw the red hot chili peppers, which was kind of surreal. frusciante and flea are gods. anthony kedis was a little lacking in energy, however.

and arcade fire was so epic... and DJ tiesto? amazing. i danced for an hour and a half straight.

also saw, and all were incredible: the decemberists, travis, peter, bjorn & john, hot chip, new pornographers (more heard than saw though). oh man.

and the art fixtures! and the people watching! and the amazing recycling program, where if you brought 10 empty bottles from the field you got a free one... we ended up with 90 bottles after the chili peppers, so we got three bottles each. anyway, the polo field was so clean! brilliant plan. and my amazing t-shirt... oh my. i'm in love.

and the desert night? perfect. especially with the eight spot lights that formed a "tent" over the field, and the backlight palm trees swaying in the gentle breeze.

downsides: we left late, so i missed fountains of wayne and the fratellis. also, traffic was hell! if it weren't for lily's peanut butter sandwiches, i would have gone crazy. got home at 4 am, haha.

*le sigh*

just cause i haven't posted in a while.

so i work at "the best computer lab on campus", and i pretty much live here now, having spent 16 out of the last 36 hours here. wow. currently i'm sitting on the floor against a post, waiting for one of my coworkers to return and keep me company. home away from home away from home, haha.

and i really want a burrito.



surprisingly, i have lots of things to talk about, but i feel this is not the forum for talking of them anymore. oh well.

in other news, i'm going to coachella on saturday! yessss. best $140 i've spent this year, i'm thinking.

oooh, my name's elissa, and im basically the coolest person ever. i have jungle disease. purple spotted jungle disease. and i have a MEGA crush on erin morrison.

false. i do not have a crush on erin morrison. instead, i prefer namibian men magazines circa 1995. hot stuff, let me tell you. really gets me off. nothing better than soft wrinkly penises.

you know what else i like? brownie batter. and cookie batter. and other stuff that barefoot pregnant women in arkansas would enjoy.

but mostly, i would like everyone to know that i just learned the hard way not to leave my LJ logged in on other people's computers.

hahaha, jessica l-c, i just saw you on date my mom for the first time. it was sooo strange! i just remember that story about the "journal" when your mom gets back from the date. ohhh my...

i hate los angeles. i can't wait to leave. i can't wait to live somewhere where you don't have to fight for parking and get parking tickets while paying parking tickets. somewhere where there are parking lots, friendly people, clean air, protected lefts, a slow pace of life. somewhere where not everyone is only looking out for themselves, because sadly, that's the way it has to be in a big city.

today at the parking violations bureau a man came in with his four year old daughter that was about to cry because she had to go to the bathroom and the woman behind the counter wouldn't let her use theirs, because "it's for employees only, and she poses a security risk." awful.

also, i am lonely and homesick. this does not help.

tonight's iTunes random musical selections have made me reminisce more fondly than should be the case about high school...

guess i should be writing about my exciting hollywood internship...but it's not really that exciting. i just know hollywood's laundromats and dive-y restaurants pretty intimately by now. still have yet to see celebrities/free concerts.

also got a $100 haircut that i thought was going to be much less expensive and much better. but i'm getting used to it, and i guess it's pretty cute.

in addition, i wish i had time to sleep. i have mostly 8-12 hour days monday through friday...

...those of you that are abroad, i hope you are having a wonderful time, but come home! it's so weird not having you here (especially my Manor girls!).

so today at the NAMM show (musical products exposition, from bolts that go in guitars to half million dollar studio consoles) i had to move out of the way so stevie wonder could walk by me!

i started my novel!  i'm excited.

If anyone is interested in earning $50 for dropping off postcards/flyers to 20 places in Little Rock/NLR let me know!

I'm working for a marketing firm that is promoting the Tracy Lawrence/Tracy Byrd country music concert in Little Rock, and I need to find someone with a car who can drop off the flyers to a list of places I will send you.

You'll need transportation, obviously, but you'll get $50 and if you do a good job you'll possibly get more work/money AND connections across the country!

Thanks! 

i feel so productive today! and only one final left to go! it's a yucky one though.

in the last two weeks i have applied for seven internships, two jobs, and one scholarship. i feel a little impatient having things in other people's hands. especially when i will be out of the state in less than 48 hours.

my dad is also in los angeles today and tomorrow, but i probably won't be able to see him cause of finals. blah.

however, the apartment smells like chocolate chip cookies, and is therefore amazing.

1.5 hours of sleep! *collapses*

i spent the last hour relearning html and redoing the look of my lj, something i haven't done in a year and a half. haha, funny, cause i am supposed to be studying. but damn, it looks hott.

i dwell on things too much.

also, myspace is kind of addicting in that you can see how many of your classmates from high school got knocked up.



...i really should be studying. but it's accounting, come on.